We had a great trip to the Virgin Islands but it went by too fast. As we were leaving the island and sitting in the airport to come back home, I started to get depressed .. I wasn’t happy to be coming back home to the cold but mostly I was thinking back on my <almost> two years that I’ve spent with Preston since we’ve been married. We have done so much travelling together and we’ve had so much fun and alone and together time that I started getting worried about how different things will be once the baby comes. We won’t be able to plan last minute Europe trips or trips to the Virgin Islands. No more will we be able to easily go anywhere for that matter. Trips as we know them are over. The next time we go somewhere, not only will we have the baby, but we’ll have to lug all the baby’s stuff with us as well. Right now, none of that seems like it will be fun. I told Preston that maybe I should’ve thought about this baby thing some more beforehand. I mean, I did want to start trying for a baby after Christmas, going into the New Year, but I think that in the back of my mind that was just the plan I had just so that I had a plan. I really hadn’t thought too too much about it otherwise. All Preston could say was “too late”. Yep, that’s for sure. I’m hoping that the closer July comes, the more excited that I’ll get, but right now I’m just not. Right now, as selfish as I sound, I’m just thinking about all the things I’ll be saying good-bye to the second I become a mom. If I thought I knew the meaning of the word responsibility then I’m sure I have another thought soon coming.
Here's a look back in pictures of our year:
We were extrememly blessed in 2010 and I am thankful for all the gifts and opportunities we were given and for the trips and memories we were able to take and make. No matter what kind of anxiety I have about the future, I know that God will guide me through and that I have a wonderful husband and a great family to lean on. Good-bye to 2010 and hello to a totally new world in 2011.
Here's a look back in pictures of our year:
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| St. Thomas, VI/ December 2010 |
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| Los Angeles, CA/ September 2010 |
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| 2 week Europe trip, we visited 5 countries: France, Monaco, Milan, Venice and Germany/ May-June 2010 |
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| Milan, Italy |
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| Skiied for the first time and hated it :) SLC, Utah / February 2010 |
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| Snowmobiling which was the coolest ever |
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| Honey I Shrunk the Kids at Universal in FL/ January 2010 |
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| Coco Beach FL/ January 2010 |
Girl you got that right! EVERYTHING changes! It won't be awful, sure things get a little harder and take a little more planning. I was just talking today about how babies totally cure us of selfishness. Well, I can only speak from a mommy's POV. But my first thoughts now are not about what will make me comfortable or what I need, but what do the girls need. What will make them comfortable and happy. They hard part comes in when they start to come before the husband. But that is a whole 'nother problem for another day! :) Oh one other thing....something happened where I can't seem to buy anything for myself anymore. I went in to Khols with a gift card for myself determined to get myself something and as usual came out with two shirts size 3T and two size 12 mo. :P Your right you've got a great husband and family (me!!) and you will be a great mom. I'm here for you! It IS a whole new world, but it is a wonderful, exciting new world full of tons of love, laughter, and poop!! Love you!
ReplyDeleteYou know that I would gladly take my grandbaby for a week or more if you want to take a trip. I think it is really important to keep your relationship with Preston strong. A lot of relationships slowly fall apart after a baby comes into the picture, but if you both stay involved with the baby and with each other you will all be happy. The baby will change your life, but you will quickly adapt and you will be a great mother. Being a mother has been my greatest acheivement in life. I loved/love you girls so much and I am so very proud of both of my girls. And both of you picked really great soul mates to share your life with. I am so incredibly happy and excited for you both.
ReplyDeleteMom aka Grandmii :)